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Over N Over Again ♥ [26 Oct 2005|10:18pm] [ mood | shocked ] [ music | Greg Raposo- Worthless ] last nite i hungout with chad boyle alex and mike... it wass funn .. we smoked and shit .. they were all bruning eachother it wass funny.. boyle took a couple muscel relazers lol sos he wa in his own lil world on the chair for most of the nite.. then i went home,took a shower ate and went to bed.. Today i woke up .. and went online.. i decieded to walk to brittneys in the freeeezing cold.. lol. i had soo many layers on .. then chad called me and asked me if i wanted to smoke.. i walked over there.. well half wayy and then i saw steve g and he gave me a ride even tho its not that far lol.. got to chadss house smoked a huge blunt and talked for a bit..then i went home so my mo would drive me to britts.. well she left so i walked to britts i the cold. but it was worth it lol.. when i got to britts we chilled until her mom came home and then we went to the fabric store to get shit to make our halloween costumes =) .. now that was funn .. lol then i came home and did my hair and make-up cause i was bored ..boreing day i guess.. i didnt get to see kyle once again today .. like i duno whats even goin on between me and him and it sucks.. like i would very much enjoy to go out with him .. lol. and i havent seen him and 2 days and i already misss him .. like i miss him more than i ever thought i would.. and i didnt get to talk to him before he went to bed =( . . which makess me sad.. but im gonna have to deal like alwayz.. lol.. i kinda have my hopes up on him .. at the same time im like prepareing myself cause i kinda got a feelin im gonna be hurt. but i gues im gonna have to take this one day at a time.. well ill ttyl.. ♥ Ashley Bear ! =) alone!

♥Today was a GOOD day ♥ [23 Oct 2005|10:01pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Incubus - i miss you ] Today was a good day lol .. i woke up at like 3 which was really good.. then i went online and talked to kyle.. we decied to hang out =).. i took a shower and got readii .. he picked me up and we went to his house.. we chilled.. he sang to me .. and I LOVED IT .. he played his geeetar .. lol and we watched the stained DVD.. i met his cousin and her friend.. she seem really kewl.. umm the way me and kyle were today wa nothin that i expected.. he made me laugh and smile sooo much .. i loved it .. lol i wish i felt like that everyday.. like ive never felt like that with him .. we've both changed soo much ..and it a good thing.. i still havent stopped smileing yett.. =) .. the talks we had today make me think soo much differently about things..and i love it.. i dunno whats gonna happen with us.. hopefully something good.. well hes online now..so imma talk to him .. Ladah ! ♥ - - His LiL Devil - - <3 (1) won't leave me alone!

♥ The Reason Why I Am The Way I Am [23 Oct 2005|02:43am] [ mood | Heart Broken ] [ music | Mandy Moore- Only Hope ] Well i decied to start this shit back up again .. umm bit of an update... me and dj are totally done.. thank god.. no more of his bullshit .. which is a relife... umm ... me brittney and melissa are talkin to danielle again.. but shes still the same old danielle.. still ssoo boy crazy .. like i thought she would have changed .. she made us think that she wassnt gonna let a guy be more important than us.. wlel we were wrong lemme tell u that.. umm .. i came out to Hurley that i liked him .. and shit.. but i kno there isnt gonna be anythin between me and him cause thats just my life .. theres nothin i can do.. i let it out and shit but who knos. like i dont regret tellin him its just that like i hurd differnt things from differnt.. and i hope they wernt lieing to me cause i really kinda have my hopes up.. but i alwayz get my hopes up .. but im prepared to gettin let down. but like if he doesnt like me i just want everyone to act like nothin ever happend and act like nothing was ssaid in the first place.. i was stayin at brittney house for a lil bit cause i coulnt handle at my house.. my mom ok makes me feel like shit all the time now..and she told me 2 times that her boyfriend is more important than me.. which is totally fucked up causse its not like hes gonna be around for long.. hes moving to arazona.. SEEE YAH !! PcE Out ! =) .. i dont kno why my moms being like this .. hes leavinf in a week or o .. yeah granted that sshes upset but she doent have to make me feel like shit and make me feel like im nothing, i understand that sshe wantss to spend time with him and sshit but she doent have to be a bitch to me about it and make me nbothin .. cause as soon as hes gone shes sstill gonna be stuck with me... and im gonna have to live with her makin me feel like nothin . like the last time we fought im not really gonna get into it but like.. i will never forgive her .. no matter how hard i tryed i cant.. like .. eggh .. and that makes me soo upset and shit and like. what she did tonite and thursday nite.. i just dont kno what to do ... me and her used to be soo kewl with eachother and were not anymore..and we will never be like that again and sshe doent relize what the fuck shes losing with me rite now. like to the point of where i screamed that i hated her tonite in the car.. yeah i didnt mean it like that but i do hate her a lil...not as much as it came out to be.. but im not gonna tell her that cuase shes needs to relize that i am her daughter and i should come before her boyfriend in ANY situation ..and it not just that. it pisse me off that he doesnt even deerve her.. hess been treating her like shit and he has on and off threw the whole time they've been goin out..and shes sstill with him after she shoulda dumped his ass al ong time ago.. first he liess to her ..and then the other stuff..and shes still gonna pick him over me really dicuss's me.. well enough of that .. last nite we got drunk at brittneys house and then went to odowds house.. and we were even too drunk tro be in a car with a sober driver.. lol .. we chilled at odowds ..smoked and drank .. james got sick soo me and brittney took care of him and he doesnt even remeber ..then today we just chilled and now im home.. umm yeah i dont want to do this shit rite now... but yeah .. im out -- ♥ Ashley Bear ♥ -- alone!

Scaff Hangin [15 Feb 2005|03:48pm] [ mood | icky... =( ] well lets see... this weekend was the best... lemme tell u .. friday i hung out with my baby ... then saturday mornin dj came over wicked early and we slept.. it wass soo cute.. then i went to lissas house and hung out.. then we went to meet up with kaitlynn ashley and ashly... and we slept at ashleys house... me lissa and ashley decieded to go to cvs.. boy was that a fun ride... we were the leader of this huge parade.. we sang our hearts out.. and i played some very intence classical music for them.. they just couldnt handle themsefves.. then we went back to ashlys and the fun began .. we were all having a blast gettin into some deep converstaions boutn the color green and percings... ohh man .. some kid came over cause somethin happened at his house.. so he came over... yaddda yaddah ... dj called and shit happend.. =(.. umm i cant really say all that happened cause it would take me to long.. but yeah . the highlight of the night was that ashly tryed to hang herself and like it was just soo funny .... lmao .. she tryefd to friggin hang herself with ashleys scaff and all we did was call for kaitlynn.. then later on we saw lissa keep slappin herself... so we all did it.. kaitynn and ashley were beating eachother... i was punchin travis full fledge in the face.. and lissa is just sittin there slappin herself.. then lissa thought she was on the moon .. it was sooo fuckin funny.. then traviss took a pic of kaitlynn and it looked like she was a ghost.. and we all thoguht she was a ghost .. it was soooo funny.. then umm yeah ... more funny shit happened.. then we went to bed...and this valenetines day was the best valentines day was the best ever.. dj got me this beautiful gold dimand heart necklace.. its soo pretty.. then u kno .. and we just chilled.. hes soo amazing... he made it soo perfect... and eghh i love him ... well i g2g cause i dont feel soo well .. ttyl love yeaz <3 Cherriez ! (1) won't leave me alone!

its been a while bitches [09 Feb 2005|08:05pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | 50 cent- candy shop ! ] well umm yeah ... theres a lot thats gone on... im finally with dj .. for real.. im soo fuckin happy.. u have no idea..i on the phone with him rite now... he just told me that he loves me... =) .. ohh baby ... im dream is finally commin true... 5 years of tryin paid off lemme tell u .. ohhh baby ... like he makes me feel sooo good.. like wen he kisses me .. im just in our own world it feels... like .. ohh man .. i cant even explain it.. its just soo good... i never want to lose him.. like no matter what he does ... i dont think i could ever break up with him .. he means soo much to me.. like im not myself wen im with him ... like not in a bad way or anythin.. its just like.. wen im with him .. i lose my breath.. and my whole world stops... and i just cant explain it... but yea... today we went to hooters and it was ok .. unlike most girls... i didnt get to mad at him..HMM ..then i came home.. my mom found somethin to bitch at me for.. like usual... so i bitched at her rite back.. =) .. hmm .. yeah .. like i love him ... ohh boy like.. i kno i keep talkin bout him .. but like i cant help it.. i finally got him ... for real.. its like a fuckin mircule... its soo amazing... my nana loves him .. my mom loves him .. hess like soo perfect.. and i get along with his mom.. lol .. and his dad to.. like ohh man ... i fuckin love it... my life is finaly gettin to where i want it to be.. pretty soon me and anny are gonna be chillin .. which is gonna be a fuckin blast... lemme telll u ... were gonna cause soo much trouble i can see it now... omg i almost forgot.. last monday my mom couldnt pick me up from skewl .. so dj had to .. so like he could only pick me up at 12:30so i left skewl without gettin a pass and shit and i got caught leaving and shit.. so i was soo scared but my dad told the dean that i could leave and she told me that i couldnt.. and shit like taht .. so i got pissed and blew up .. ohh boy... then she tryed tellin me i was gonna get inhgouse... mind u .. I NEVER GET IN TROUBLE in skew... and she was gonna start more shit for me... so ... i went home dj came over and he brought me rose's cause the next day was our one month =) oh yeah baby !!! ... lol then tuesday i went to skewl ..and i talked to my dean .. and he let me go with .. which was amanzing nice of him .. lol.. then i got to chill with my baby .. and we went for a nice ride.. hehe .. u kno how we do nucca =) =) =) .. yeah ... any wayz.. i gots to go lay down and wait for my baby to call me back ... ttyl love yeaz... ASHLEY N DJ ALLWAYZ N FOREVER BITCHES.. fuck all ya'll that doubted me ;) alone!

dont blame me for my typos~ blame the best plant in the word .. w33d [12 Dec 2004|12:37pm] [ mood | high ] [ music | hte wonderful ringers oln my cellurart ] wel... i havent been hea in a while but yeah..im sitll with chad !! thank god... oh man..hes the fuckin greatest... ummm we broke up for about 2 dayz ..which i was totally out of it..on the 8th he came to my house and we started goin bak out.. :) :) :) .. umm thiss weekend was the fuckin best... me n lissa went out with jeff " jonny" and carlos... oh man was that a ride an a half in the nice HUGE escolade..oh man it was soo great..then we wqent bak to lissa got into her car...and followed jeff to pick p his fdad and uncle ray at abar.. we almost \crashed into thoem about 3 times..its alreite tho.. then we went to jeffs to get him then we went to buger king.. oh man that was fuckin funny..this lil girl was hoppin around and jeff started hopping with her... then jonny sat on a ketchup thigie..then we went home... then saturday we got up and went xmas shoppin my dady gots me a celluar unit .. 978 726 2281 .. hehe.. umm then went to oldnavy ... got a jacket .. got some money from my dad :) then went with lissa and donny and dizzy..gots some nice tabacco and tobacco wrap and went to lissas and chilled.... i was a tru gansta dancin at the club...the britt came over..and jeff drove donny and dizzy home and we were sopose dot meet jeffa t his house but we went to buger king.. omg were huge..thenw en went to jedds hosue and smoked some more..and the rest of out shit..wehich was fucin great .. till i split my fav drink in th world all over me... thenw enwent to walmsrt and we were gonna steal food but umm they were gonna plant it all aon me .. but no .. we left and went home ..then we past out a 9 at nite..wow.. were sooo blasted rite now.....ands donny was nice enought to make sure we had enought to wake and back today.. wat a good chapp ! g2g ... I LVOE U CHAD @! (3) won't leave me alone!

i just cant handle it ... [01 Dec 2004|08:02pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | I'd do anything for u - BBS ] u have no idea how hard it is to lose one of the only people that matters to u... it sucks on sooo many levels..its hard to look back on all the memories we had ...and relize that thats all u have left.. this is just so much for me.. i wonder if ur as hurt as i am.. whenever we talk it seems like everythings gonna be ok.. but then i relize that its never gonna be ok.. i can only wish that it will be .. but it NEVER will no matter how hard i try.. everything i do is somethin that we used to do and .. it will never be the same.. memories are everywhere...without u it feels like there no point of living anymore.. my whole future is nothing now.. its not ur fault..its hers..i hate the sneeking around.. i hate it ... i just cant take this anymore.. id do anythin for u .. anything.. no1 will ever compare to u ... alone!

=) best weekend EVER !! [29 Nov 2004|07:50pm] [ mood | stressed ] well ... this was a every eventful week and weekend... we didnt have skewl on thursaday so i slept at britt wendsday nite... we were talkin about some stuff... i love that girl she understands how i feel about some ppl...and i feel like now im not the only one.. its good tho ... we got to talk and i think it made us feel a lil bit better about everythin.. we both needed that... then i was really tired and i started to fall asleep .. welll i thought it was safe to but .. OHH WAS I WRONG.. the next thing i kno theres this preacher next to me preaching to me about " u kno ur fat when" .. well she was preachin for hours i was laughin my ass off i couldnt breathe.. and she just wouldnt stop.. i thought i was gonna die..i think that made the nite a lil better .. lol then friday we waited for lissa to pick us up cause we were gonna go sleep at her casa.. her and jay finally she picks us up with jay.. we decieded to go to the bowlin ally to pass time and wait for jeff to call us to chillax... yeahhhh ... i see chad there and he was pissed...some fuckin asshole broke into his car and stole his stereo system.. they smashed the fuckin window...assholes.. but he seemed a lil better wen we were talkin.. then he went back with his friends bowling.. i come up with this great idea to sleep at my dads old hosue sence he moved out and all.... so lissa brings me to my house i get blankets and shit and then she dropps me and britt off bak at the bowlin ally cause she has to go pick up her bro and bring him home.. i asked chad if he wanted to come..and he did..he brought us to my dads to make sure no1 was living there..and no1 was =) .. so we went to britts and waited for lissa and jay to come bakk.. then we all headed to my dads and we went to put the key in the door and sure as shit the assholes changed the locks ... well we chilled in the laundryroom to figure out whats goin on cause none of us could go home.. well jay was sittin in the washer machine and chad was sittin on the dryer and i was leanin him and britt and lissa were sittin on the black table.. and i look at them and then look at chad... and the next thing i kno britts on the ground laughin and lissas in the corner readii to piss herself... THEY FUCKIN BROKE THE TABLE !!.. we booked it out of there and decied to drive to my house to figure shit out.... well we were gonna sleep in the car but u kno .. chad doesnt have a window and there isnt enough room in lissas car for all 5 of us.. so my mom and bro wernt gonna be home and my nana was sleepin so we were gonna sleep here... were all in the hallway and we had a shit load of blankets and pillows so we gave it all to he guyz and told them to run into my room... i told my nana ... she asked if there was any guyz.. i said yeah .. she didnt care.. i was soooooo suprised...then we were all in my room..and me lissa and britt had to change... we ALL went into the bathroom and i was puttin on my pj pants and i hit my head on the door thingie underneathe the sink and i had quite the attractive lumo on my forehead.. it was hott.. then britt didnt feel good so then she left..so now it was just me lissa chad and jay all in one fuckin bed... it went jay lissa me chad... well u see.... u kno ur fat when u take up the size of 2 ppl in bed other than one... well me and chad we sooo squished.. i had to basically hold him the whole nite so he wouldnt fall off.. CHAD DOES NOT SLEEEP AT ALLL... we all chilled ... u kno ... umm yeah .. then we woke up .. lissa went home to get clothes and shit ... i took a shower and chad and jay were chillin in my room...wen lissa got bak we cleaned up the HUGE mess and went to get her check ... she had her hood on the whole time cause she didnt want to get shit for " up n leaving" the day before.. then we went to headlines... chad and jayt wouldnt stop touchin shit ... lol.. then we went back to my house and watched some movies..pa stoped bye and gave us a nice gift !! =) then we went to lissa and chilled .. then chad had to leave...then we brought jay hoem..well on our way out of his drive way .. there was this lil man with a lantern....and i just couldnt help it... i got out of the car and attempted to "gank" it.. well that one lil man weighs a lottt ... lissas in the car laughin .. im tryin to pick up but im laughin.. then i just dropped it ran into the car and we peaced the fuck out of there.. next time were gonna get it ! .. lol then we got to lissas house ..and i became a drunkin gilligan... i was tryin to find a way to get off the island.... then i passed the fuck out after tryin to gut skipper and using him as a boat... i knew it was usless... but this weekend at lissas me chad and jay are sleepin over..and were gonna get a xmas tree and decorate it ... and were gonna make ginger bread houses... cant wait guyz ..I LOVE U ALL SOOOO MUCH !!! (2) won't leave me alone!

silly billy [21 Nov 2004|10:53pm] [ mood | hot ] [ music | linkin park- paprecut ] 1*What time is it: 10:15 pm 2*Todays Date: November 21th, 2004 3*Full Name: Ashley Rose Gilbert 4*Gender: female 5*Age: 15 6*Birthday: febuary 28 7*Siblings(age,sex): Jimmy 12 8*Parents: Debbie And Jimmy 9*Nieces: nope 10*Nephews: nope 11*School: Voke 12*School colors: Dark Blue and Gold 13*Car: Not To Sure What To Call It 14*Car color: White 15*Eye color: greenish brown 16*Hair Color: dark brown/black 17*Hair Length: kinda long 18*Weight: 125 19*Height: 5'3 20*Skin(pale white,tan,dark,black): somewhat tan 21*what are you wearing as of now: white tank top and jeans 22*Are you wearing make-up? yea 23*Did you take a shower today? uh huh baby 24*Pets(names,kind): Romie 25*What are you drinking right now? Pepsi 26*Do you smoke? Some What 27*If so, what do you smoke? I'll Never Tell 28*Do you have a car , or is it your parents? parent's car 29*Are you listening to music? yes 30*If so, what song, and who is it by? linkin park- with you 31*What are your screen names? xsw33tkiszeszx and oOoPinkxPrincess 32*Crush: Chad ! 33*Person you want to go out with: Im Going Out With Chad 34*Dating anyone? Yes 35*If so, who? Chad 36*How long? almost 2 weeks 37*who asked who out? Chad asked me out 38*Are you in love? I Love who he is.. But its not love YET 42*Are you a little devil, or a sweet little innocent ANGEL? Both =) 43*Who’s your best friend? brittney *sara ann parisi* 44*Why is she/he your best friend? because brittney is alwayz there..and no matter what me and sara will alwayz be best friends so some ppl just have to get there fat asses used to it =) 45*What's your perfect dream date like? anythin that me and chad do together 46*Who would it be with? Chad 47*where would you go? Prolly have a nice dinner on the beach . 48*What kind of music do you listen to? whatever he wanted to listen to *************YES OR............NO***************** 49*Shy: sometimes 50*Outgoing: yup 51*Ugly: not really 52*Pretty: not really 53*Beautiful: nope 54*Loveable: sure 55*Sensitive: YUP 56*Nerdy: no. 57*Geek: hell no 58*Playa: not anymore 59*Playa hater: yup 60*Tall: not really 61*Short:i think im short 62*Only Child: not :-/ 63*Cheated on a test: no... NEVER ;) 64*Did someone else's homework: yeah . 65*let someone act like you on the phone: i thought everyone did that sometimes. :-/ 66*asked out your crush: yeah...wen i grow some balls :) 67*Split up a relationship : yep ... i couldnt let him be with her 68*Drove a car: yep 69*Road a roller coaster:hell yea ! 70*Chickened out on a roller Coaster: hell no ! 71*Went to a concert: Yea... 72*Went to the beach: all the time 73*Been to an Ocean: all the time 74*Called your boyfriend a jerk: yea.. but he knew i was just kiddin 75*Made fun of your best friend: all the time... she does it back ! 76-79 were not important.. so yeah moving on.... *********FAVORITES************ 80*Color: Pink, Black, baby blue 81*Flower: White, Pink, Red Roses 82*Car: Jeeps / trucks 83*Drink: apple juice and any soda 84*Day: Friday 85*Song: hmmm depends on my mood 86*CD: again.. depends 87*person: Chad britt and sara =) 88*Star: 89*Actor: jonny dep 90*Actress: Carmen Electra 91*Movie: The Notebook 92*Singer(s): GC, new found glory, sum 41 93*Rapper(s): eminem 94*Boyfriend/Girlfriend: chad and lissa 95*Music Video: GC predictable 96*Radio Station(s): kiss 108 and jamn 94.5 97*TV Show: Boy Meet's word..Viva la Bam 99*Animal(s): MONKEYS MONKEYS MONKEYS 100*School(elementary, Jr High, High school): emelmentary I love naps 101*Boy Name(s): ian 102*Girl Name(s): sky-lee 103*pet Name(s): Max **************Friends********************* 106*SHORTEST TEMPER:lissa 107*MOST TALENT: brittney 108*FUNNYEST TRACK RECORD: i dunno 109*WEIRDEST TASTE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: britt 110*ODDEST SENSE OF HUMOR: britt 111*DIRTYEST MIND: britt and lissa 112*MOST UNUSUAL IDEAS: britt n lissa 113*CRUSH/BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND: chad n lissa 114*IS THERE A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF THEM: pretty much everything reminds me of lissa danielle and britt 115*DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR EX BF/GF: ....some yes, others...lets just say no 116*BEST GIRL FRIENDS: sara lissabritt danielle 117*BEST GUY FRIENDS: chad kyle tyler 118*WHY ARE YOU SUCH GOOD FRIENDS, AND HOW DID YOU GET TO BE SUCH GOOD FRIENDS: cause were not like eachother at all... i dunno how to explain it.. but i'd be lost without them 120*COULD YOU TELL THEM ANYTHING: well...I think they already no everything about me 121*WHY/NOT: it's all about trusting people 122*DO YOU TRUST THEM: hell yea 123*OUT OF ALL YOUR FRIENDS, WHO IS THE LOADEST: danielle 124*SHORTEST: lissa 125*TALLEST: britt 126*FUNNYEST: britt lissa and danielle 127*SWEETEST: chad 128*TRUSTED: britt sara lissa danielle chad 129*TRUSTING: britt sara lissa daniellechad 130*ADVISER: 131*ADVISEE: 132*MOST PERFECT: britt lissa 133*MOST INSECURE: lissa... i dunno why tho 134*SMARTEST: britt DUMBEST/BLONDEST: DANIELLE... warning..tends to fly into back window of truck 136*HORNYEST: hmm ... ALL OF THEM ! 137*HONEST: All of them ***************Which One??***************** 138*Car OR jeep: Jeep 139*Sweet and ugly OR Rude and Hot: sweet and ugly 140*Tall OR short: tall 141*Long hair in the summer OR short hair in the winter:short 143*hot,hairy chest guy OR ugly smooth chested guy: body hair is GROSS... unless its a happy trail 145*Justin Timberlake with a bald head OR long hair: I love justin...he's hot either way 146*Pringles OR Doritos: doritos 147*Scary Movie OR Romantic Movie: I dunno...I like both 148*Dog OR Cat: dog 149*Fish OR Bird: Birds.. 150*Sandals with socks or tennis shoes with no socks: sandals with socks 151*Shoes OR Sandals: sandals 152*Computer with no mouse OR Computer with no keyboard: no mouse 153*Love OR Like: love hurts whether it's good or not.. 154*Hot Or Cute: how about both *Honest & Nerdy OR Liar & Popular: honest and nerdy 156*100 friends or 1 best friend: 1 best friend 157*100 friends that lie all the time OR no friends: no friends 158*Hott boyfriend that never calls you OR Ugly Boyfriend that calls you when you want him to: ugly boyfriend that calls when I want him too 160*Staple your tongue or Staple your Lip: lip. 161*Long Gross nails Or no Nails at all: no nails !! 162*Food or drink: FOOOOOD ! 163*Spinach OR Raw Fish: NEITHER ! 164*Green Beans or Refried beans: green beans I guess? 167*Email or Mail: Email alone!

its so hard to see now. . [16 Nov 2004|09:35pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | memory ... ] omg i dunno what to do ... i cant stop cryin.. i just cant take all this anymore.. i totally lost my best fuckin friend.. the only person i thought i would have till the day i die is fuckin gone..never ot be here again.. and it sucks.. she ment the world to me .. i would do ANYTHIN to make sure she wass ok.. yeah i kno we had our ups and downs but who doesnt... but look at all our ups.. so many to name.. we did everythin .. we were alwayz together...we alwayz talked how we would be bestfriends no matter what..how we were gonna become old ladyz in our house with lots of dogs.. not cats cause we wanted to be different...look back at all the things we couldnt wait to do wen we got to the age we are now.. all our dreams and hopes we had together...all our promises..all of our memories.. we said we would never forget..and u did.. u let someone else tare us apart..i will alwayz try to make everythin better for u no matter what .. i will never forget our memores and promises.. i will alwayz look bak and wonder what went wrong.. how things could have been.. how things would be so mych better if we were like we used to be.. i would have never thought that things would end up the way they are today .. i just wish i would wake up tomorrow and this would have been a bad bad drewam and things were back to the way they used to be.. its soo hard to see anythin anymore.. i have nothin to look forward to anymore..u have absalotly no idea how mych u ment to me .. ur were my everythin .. i couldnt imagin anythin without u... i sit hea and think of this shit and cry all the fuckin time cause u will never kno how i feel.. u dont look back at everything that we went threw ..u dont look bak wen we got the neighborhood drunk off there ass... every newyears ever we were together.. havin a party of or own.. we alwayz managed to have fun .. no matter what.. u sneakin me into the car to go to the movie store to get a video game.. us stayin up all nite tryin to beat a game..us gathering up all our money to go to the store ..wen we used to alwayz bring our brothers sledding in the winter.. our old club in the woods .. us gettin lost in the woods all the time..now everythin is soo much different..we dont even talk.. we dont even do anytthin .. who would ever of thought that we wouldnt be friends.. [[ -¦- *u kno who u are... i will NEVER forget u*-¦- ]] alone!

OH MY GODD ARE WE CRAZZZY.. [11 Nov 2004|01:13pm] [ mood | energetic ] [ music | dump it up !! ] last nite me britt and ethan slept over lissa's house.. it was sooo funn.. first we chilled u kno talked about the old times wen everyone used to get along.. then we decied to play hide n go seek until josh came home.. it was sooo fuckin funny... first me and lissa hid in josh's bed then ethan found us..then britt was it..and i hide behoind a chair it took them forever to find me .. lol.. then ethan was it again and me and melissa thought he wouldnt expect us to be in the same spot as last time so we hid in josh's bed againa dn britt hid behind a box in front of the bed.. iwas laughin ssooo hard..ethan steped on britts wrist and she cracked up laughin..then ethan found lissa .. but yet i was rite next to her and he didnt see me.. lol .. then we were reading thiss XXX rated junie b book..well britt made it XXX rated..then wen spoony(( josh)) came home we were throwin SPRJ's ( speed racer john)) bike wheel into the road..oh man that was great..then we went inside and sang with some sing along types.. lol it was great. then this mornin ethan had to leave cause he had scouting lmao... so we were sittin in bed hungry... well we decieded to borrow (( steal )) pa's car and go to dunkin's.. boy was that a trip.. WE NEVER GO CAUGHT... it was great... umm dunno whats happenin today cause we have no skewl lol.. welll ... g2g love yeaz !! <3 Cherrie Baby alone!

well....ummm. [09 Nov 2004|07:41pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | jessie mcartney - beautiful soul ! ] well..today was ok.. i got up late and went into skewl late... me and britt worked on our projects..fun fun..talked about shit ... lol.. then we went out of shop and came back and someone drilled our board projects to the tables..ohh boy were we pissed...cara admited to doin britts and shit .. and brittney fuckin flipped out... i flipped out 2 and shit .. we NEVER did anythin bad to anyone in shop and they fuckin go and fuck with our projects... ohhh man... just wait... britt wanted to punch car in he face..so didnt i .. that lil bitch planed the whole fuckin thing out... oh man im still so heated.. any wayz. we got over it and went to lunch.. saw chad... walked around then went back to shop... fun stuff..then i went to britts after skewl.. i havent been there in a while.. lol .. we did the usual.. lol =) then we tryed to lay down and watch tv but we both feel asleep ... lol.. then went to pick up my brother..fun fun.. then came home.. im sooo bored ... lol ... no1's online... oh yea i ALMOST forgot.. IM GOIN OUT WITH CHAD.. hehe )*(Ashley N Chad 11-09-04)*( and what bitches !! hehe..love yeaz ! (1) won't leave me alone!

woahhh what a day [08 Nov 2004|09:14pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | let's get it started - Black Eyed Peas ] today was alrite..its shop week so it isnt that bad.. britt didnt come to skewl witch kinda sucked. someone from x-week fucked with the pipes for our project.. wiat till we get ahold of theres. =) ..hung out with cara most of the day..joy joy.. talked to chad from FTJ.. he came over for a sec.. hes pretty kewl.. um.. chillin with lissa this weekend...prayin to god i get money to go to the GC concert.. dont think i'll be able to go... =-/ which kinda sucks... hmm... guyz suck as i said before.. i wish there was a guy who actually wanted a seriouse reationship..which intitles us goin out for a while =-/ and someone who doesnt just want SEX... but u kno ... wishing only gets u so far.. but oh well ill quit my bitchin... alone!

wow buddy [23 Oct 2004|02:53pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | red is the new black . avenged sevenfold ] well its been a while.. so yeah .. things are ok ... umm i hang out with brittney all the time...NO COMPLANES AT ALL ..hehe... we do the usual .. hehe... were such goody goody's... this week we hung out with nicole.. shes the fuckin greatest... we got stoned of course.. shes the fuckin funnyest grl ever.. we were all talkin and i had "big burst" and nichole took like 10 mis to say " u one crazy bitch ... hit the bowl n pass it" .. me na dbritt were D Y I N G .. then nicole lays down and sits bak up and thought she passed out.. then britt did somethin madd funny but i cant recollect .. but me n nicole were cryin ... ohhh man .. i gotta love them !! ... hmm .... last nite me and britt got trasshed... i passed out on the livin room floo and woke upo in bed... how the hell that happen .. i dunno ....oh yeah my moms new bf took me and he to get our belly bottons done ... hehe and im gettin a tatoo .. ohhh yeahhhh baby .. heheh .. u kno u like it.. GUYZ SUCK AND THATS WHY IM DONE WITH THEM... well im not goin lez or anythin but yeah ....WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAH .... i cant wait till halloween weekend... im sooo done for. .. well me matt britt and matt are fo` sho` .. hehe i like it ... i like it ALOT !! . hmmm .. . skewl is fuckin G R E A T ... me and brittney switched in to HVAC-R .. fun stuff... our shop almost blew up twice ... yeah ... reall fuckin fun stuff... lmao .. now britts diein her hair !! :):):):):):) hehehe..then were goin to matts house.. hehehehehheheh... and meeting the "ORANGE BUDDA"... we kno ur jealous!!!!! .. hmmm yeah ... then i dunno ... (1) won't leave me alone!

Cant Alwayz Get What You Want [08 Sep 2004|04:59pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | tipsy - Remix ! ] Well .. lif just plain out sucks.. lol what the fuck else is new... it just seems like so many ppl have changed sooo much over the summer..mostly for the worse..i've had to deal with a lot of shit a 15 year shouldnt deal with .. i dunno just shits finally starting to sink in .. not everythings gonna wortk out .. and things are alwayz gonna be what they seem to be..just hope is just hope.. it may not happen...likly it wont... w.e im just so confused with everythiung rite now..things i've been waiting for to happen are finally happening ang i dunno they just dont feel rite anymore.. but w.e... stayed home from skewl cause im sick ... lol talked to my BESTEST FRIEND TYLER last nite.. hes the fuckin greatest..he thinks hes moving to cali ..well he has another thing comin .. lol ... welll i dunno what to say .. ttyl love yeaz !! alone!

HEHEHE THUNDERSTORMS EXCITE ME [20 Aug 2004|05:55am] [ mood | naughty ] [ music | ashlee simpson ... U MAKE ME WANNA LALA ] well...i got skyleigh today :):):)...me britt and my brother decied to take a hike to dizzy'z house casue thats were donny was soposed to be there.. i ended up runnin most of the way...ohh well better for soccer... then they werent there so we went to the store got some candy :) and went to the park..then it started to down poor ... me n britt went into the middle of the court layin there.. it was hottt.. then we started runnin and shit..then we took bottles filled with water and threw it all over eachother..hehe it was fun..only kewl kids have water fites in the rain... well then we decided to go to matts house... ohh billy we were alll SOAKED...and my nice pretty pink pants were now SEE THREW... we walked threw the woods and left britts and my brothes bike there... ohh joy... we went to matts house and stood there all wet while they watched "KILL BILL" .. then we left cause his dad came home.. then on the way home it started to fuckin poor like a penis sprinkle...then i was gettin reallly tired cause i kept running....well a smoker and running DONT MIX AT ALL LEMME TELL U !!... then we went home and toook a shower n shit..tonite its off to the mall and to britts aunts... tommorrow IS THE FASHION SHOW !!!!! YEAHHHHH BABY !! ... were gonna work that run way !!! hehehe..welll ttyl love yeaz !!!!!! <3 Cherrie Baby ohhh soooo fuckin hottt !! <3 alone!

shit happens [18 Aug 2004|05:18pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | dashboard confessionals . hands down ] welll moms being a total bitch ... she doesnt understand anythin ..she acts like shes does but she has no idea... like omg i tell her almost everythin then i regret it...she wants me to trust her but yet she cant trust me...errg it pisses me off sooo fuckin bad...she wont move bak home and shes tryin to keep me from movin bak home... but she cant..omg ... my dad has done everythin to make her happy n to get her to move bak...but shes to much of shit head to move bak....i fuckin hate livin hea.. my grand mother thinks she can act like my mom and tell me what to do.. ohh boy does she have a rude awaking... errg just fuckin everythin gets put on me somehow... i cant take all this shit...i just cant...my friends suck (( well some of them )) then guyz suck ((ALL OF THEM)) my family (( like i really have one)) there just all a bunch of fakes... like i like ppl .. but i cant tell them cause either im 2 afraid of gettin rejected or..there one of my best friends.. .or they have a gf.. which sucks... but u kno ... life goes on ... but one of ythem jsut cant aeem to make up his mind.. i tell him everything.. and i mena everythin .. he says he understands me n shit.. and that we will go out ..then he just wants to be friends.. which totally confuses me... and now i dunno what the fuck he wants to be... and i dunno... he tells me he still likes me n shit but then ..i dunno even kno .,... its just soo fukcin conmfusing.. i basically lost my best friend of like FOREVER to this other chick .. and that BLOWS my mind... errg i hate her...i dunno ... just nothings goin rite... i dunno ... im just lost in everythin...ttyl ... alone!

Memory [18 Aug 2004|03:26pm] welll i dunno what to say.. im movin bak in with my dad tonite cause my g-ma is being a bitch and i cant stand her...hehehe....well DANIELLE MY LOVE GOT HER LICENCE !! oh yeah baby.. im sooo glad me n her are friends again.. i lvoe her to death..hehehe..well i gotta get readii to go out... i lvoe youz !! <3 Cherrie Baby alone!

Welll Hello There U Fuckin HOTTTASSS [01 Jan 1997|05:04pm] [ mood | crazy ] welll.... last nite i talked to donny for a while then i went to sleep...then i wake up this mornin and notice my dad didnt go to work.... OHHH FUCKIN GREEEAT....i go online and eat my lunch and he a rap a tap tap on my front door... i go to open it and its danielle donny and dizzy... ohhhh billy... i get dressed and chill with them...we went to dizzyz house for a lil then we went to donnys...shit happened..then we went to mc donalds and i got a sandwich with BIG HUNKS OF CHEESE around my burgers..then we went to donnys house then ..then tto tiffs... then we i got droped off cause we were hangin ouit with gat ... then i took shower and such...then my brother calls me and shows me this new adorable kitten ... i called her sunshine...shes sooo fuckin cute...then i went to the bowlin ally with britt :):):):):):) ... we hung out with matt n sexyy matt chris josh and chris..lemme tell u ... I KNO HOW TO BOWL... hehehe then me matt h and britt were playin with my bouncy ball and it was goin alll over the place..we kept gettin yelled at cause we didnt follow the rules of the bowlin ally bowling ppl..ohh boy shoot us !! well g2g too much to type...byes alone!

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